Friday, January 9, 2009
If you don't like the word don't read my blog!
Because this isn't about the causes I advocate for this is about ME. I get to say what I want about ME
Every single year my birthday comes around and the week leading up to it turns to shit. Every year I start out so positive and say its not going to happen this year - but it still comes at me...
It still rains on me with a vengance.
Am I being punished for being born AGAIN ?
That is what it feels like, because how come every one else can have a wonderful birthday - no dramas, lovely celebrations and I cant ?
Is it because its 3 weeks after Christmas ? and no one can be bothered ?
I put so much effort into everyone else's birthday but when its comes to mine NOTHING. I mean I even had to share my birthday with my Mother (adoptive) because her birthday was the next day so it was always a "joint birthday"
Ive never been special on my birthday, like everyone else is, its their special day. And now that my Mum has been gone I don't even get a joint birthday - I get NOTHING. No celebration...Just some presents and false words in cards.
Christmas is for children. Birthdays are for EVERYONE.
Being Adopted and having a birthday is a hard day and only other adoptees and First Mothers get that. Because whilst its a celebration of birth its also a loss.
So when it comes around to my birthday and my expectations are high that this year will be the year that I'm cared about and it all falls flat on my face, I again end up in a heap
2 days out until my birthday and nothing has changed..Not even my own husband gets it.
Every single fucking year I say IM NOT HAVING A BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR - and here we are again , I thought it might be different this year . I was wrong
Every year I hold out hope that they might call me.. send a card...tell me that they want me in their life.. Like other members of the family have embraced me...and every year I am slapped in the face..with the empty echoes of my own tears rolling down....
Here's last years post
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
This was my first Blog Post *click here*
And Guess what ? I still feel the very same as I did in that very post
Oh yeah and I'm still a Hugger Mugger
Oh and PS its still my birthday in a few days...!
Oh and PPS Im a bit late with the celebrations for my one year anniversary LOL
Am I talking about you ?
Am I taking about your child ? your adopted child ?
NO. Same as when people talk about any Mother I don't take umbridge because its not about me, I have no need to feel guilty or frightened or any other feeling because its not to do with me.
So Why do adoptive parents have to get all wound up and start yelling because you write a piece about a horrific adoptive Parent that abused or killed their child that they adopted ?
Anyway ON TO Adam Herman - this is Adam Herman Taken in 4th Grade, He would be a man now of about 21 if he is indeed still alive
Adam Herman is a little boy that has been missing for 10 Years - A Decade - thats right...missing and NEVER reported by his Adoptive Parents Doug and Valerie Herman !
Right now its being looked in as a suspicious death - Read Article HERE
And check out this little eye opener snipped from that article and bolded by me
Thats right despite him being gone, they continued to collect the $$$ for him
He said this is the first case he has dealt with in decades of law enforcement work in which officers didn't learn that a child was missing until years later. A recent tip to the missing and exploited child unit led to the investigation.
The adoptive parents, Doug and Valerie Herrman of Derby, could face charges, according to Murphy. He said The Eagle reported that the couple continued to claim the child years after he disappeared, first in bankruptcy proceedings filed in 2002, and later in a divorce case filed in 2003. The divorce case was later dropped.
And people deny Adoption is a money making industry PFtttt! Its not only the agencies but there are some dam greedy people out there that keep fostering/adopting kids just to get the paycheck..despite how many people wish to bury their heads in the sand about this - it happens a lot.
This is the Adoption process in Kansas quoted from here
We learned adoptive parents go through an extensive background check. However, once an adoption is finalized, the state is out of the picture.
That all changes if money is involved. Many adoptive families in Kansas receive Medicaid to help them raise a special needs child. Those children with significant medical, emotional or developmental needs.
The state and parents come to an agreement prior to the adoption.
The assistance can be a one-time payment or reoccuring. If it's the latter, Medicaid requires the parents submit an annual written report to verify the money is still needed.
Their word is Medicaid's only source. They never go in person to check.
So how does this apply to Adam Herrman? According to family, his adoptive parents received state assistance, possibly thousands of dollars. Right now we don't know why.
Here, in this Article his adoptive brother talks about the abuse suffered by their adoptive parents.
Adams Adoptive Brother says that he and the other children were told that Adam was sent back to the state.
"An 11 year old kid disappears and no one does anything about it. It's sad. It's very sad-breaks your heart," says Adam's adoptive brother who wants his identity concealed.
He lived in the home with Adam and wants to be a voice for his brother a boy who hasn't had one for a decade.
"I felt like I could have done more-you don't want to turn your parents in and get them in trouble."
Adam's brother is referring to abuse he says happened to Adam at the hands of his adoptive parents.
"What I remember most is the abuse and how we would defend him and do everything we could not to let it happen."
Adams Adoptive Parents said off camera last week that Adam ran away in 1999, didn't come back and after two weeks they were too scared to report it
But they weren't too scared to keep claiming him !
There are a couple of scenarios that could have happened to Adam..
1) he ran away and was abused, raped , murdered
2) he was abused and killed accidentally or on purpose by his Adoptive Parents
3) he ran way and was whisked off by Dorothy and Toto to live a happy wonderful life (after all this is Kansas!)
Which do you think it was ?
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Being a person on my own belief system and not someone who can be used or conned I delved deeper and found the Baby Safe Haven New England Morrisey's to be Abhorrent in their dealings and underhand movements to gain babies for adoption.
WELL today they sank a new low in my eyes (actually dated 31/12/08) but today is the first time I saw it - Why don't we use Caylee Anthony to further our Cause
Thats right people they are using the Death of dear sweet Caylee Anthony to further their safe haven dumps. To further their OWN Agenda.
Quoted from Their My space site
The opposition groups to Baby Safe Haven laws have begun an argument over the use of the words "birth mother" in the following article published in USA Today.
The facts are that Casey Anthony gave birth to Caylee making her the birth mother, but does that actually make her a "mother." A mother puts her child first in all things. Many birth mothers feel they cannot care for their baby, and be the mother the baby needs. Too bad Casey didn't put Caylee's well being first at birth, and possibly put her up for adoption or safe haven.
Most likely little Caylee would be alive today, and Casey would not be facing these charges, and possibly a life of incarceration.
You Cant say that.
You don't know that.
You do NOT have a Crystal Ball.
Its not your place to say that.
Its not Fair on Caylee to use her as a pawn in her death to further YOUR OWN Agenda
Shame on you. Shame Shame Shame
Caylee's Death is not some tool to be used as propaganda for Adoption
How dare you !
Shame on ALL those that think its okay to do so