Three people I miss this Christmas...
One I will never see, not until (maybe) when I die...(I still don't know if I believe that there is a afterlife)
The other two I will not see unless I get on a plane and travel to the other side of the world...
Even then, I may not see them, because they may still reject me despite my traveling across the other side of the world to see them !!!
I miss My Mum terribly. Its coming up to 10 years in 2010.....10 years since I had her arms wrap around mine and tell me how much she loved me...10 years since since she wished me Merry Christmas...10 years since I got to hug her and tell her I love you....10 years since a little part of me died the day she did.....
How I miss her........
I find loss extremely hard to deal with, I find death therefore infinitely more so......
I wish I could know, I wish I could really for 100percent know that I will see those that have died that I love again...I could cope then...............
But thats never going to happen is it....If you have faith then you are supposed to have comfort from that...but if you listen to those who believe in evolution, that we cane from a spec, a cell..then there really is no afterlife, and I will never see those that I love again :(
So is faith and the believe in God and where we came from ie Adam and Eve, and the afterlife just some made up / dreamed up fantasy to make us all feel better ? so that we dont mope this earth until we die ?
I just wish I could have proof just for myself to know, that there really is a afterlife :( because I really miss my Mum.................
Here's a shout out for my nephew Aaron Reese....
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I've never found them to be mutually exclusive, Jane. While we have no "proof" of the afterlife, conservation of energy says that the energy that animates us has to go ~somewhere~. And there are just far too many anecdotes and stories about an after life to make me doubt. But that's me, Sweetie.
I hope you find some measure of peace.
I agree with previous commenter.
My grandpa died a couple years ago, after 10 years of being in and out of the hospital and often suffering a lot. Fortunately, we were able to be there with him. He prayed for and with us even in his last hours. We couldn't understand him through the oxygen mask, and at that point, he couldnt live without it, but our hearts still knew and felt what his heart was trying to say.
I was also pregnant with my 2nd daughter at the time. We named her Charlotte after him, Charles.
The pastor that did the funeral said you can always tell when the family of a deceased one has faith. The sadness and grief is there, but it is not all-consuming and hopeless. We were even able to laugh at a few funny memories with him. Some might find that disrespectful, but we truly believe that it was only his body that died.
I can't look at the world and believe everything came together in such a way accidentally.
I hope you find some peace too. Even if you don't ever come to believe in life after death, at least know that your mother would not want you to suffer because of her. I look at my daughters, and I know they would miss me, but I'd never want them to be held back by it.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts honestly with others.
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